ENCAPSULATION — TAPES #183 & #184
Q: Mark Russell Bell
T: Tany Soussana, book publicist
Tony Trupiano's producer wanted to speak to me so I telephoned him. I didn't record it: "I'm not going to tape it because it will be very repetitive but I'll let you know what happened . . . By the way, the tagline for Tony Trupiano's show is 'The most positive radio show in America' or something so that's curious. Of all the people I've sent my famous cover letter to, he's the first one to respond so maybe there's some connection.'"
Q: Also in The Hotline Herald of February 1997, "a Newsletter of AIDS Project Los Angeles," under the column "A Little Bit of Gossip," it says: "Mark Russell just had his book Testament published. It is available at the Bodhi Tree Bookstore. Congratulations, Mark!"
The Southern California HIV/AIDS Hotline had received 2,092 calls in January. A newsletter article reported the Hotline received 3,092 calls in January and only one person hadn't been reached during callbacks.
Q: So it's Wednesday and I got up nervously — about my radio interview. And waited and waited. I didn't have breakfast because I was too nervous and they never called. So finally at 9:45 I called the studio line that Steve had given me and whoever answered the phone couldn't find him but did say that they had my right number. So I said, "Well is it going to happen today? Is it still going to happen today?" And he said, "No, I don't think it's going to happen today. ("BUT") Steve will call you."
Q: So he did call — Steve called and he was very nice. He said that she (show host Darian O'Toole) wasn't feeling very well . . . So, anyway, it looks like we're going to do it on Monday instead, which is the Presidents Day holiday. So I don't know if that's good or bad — a better audience or not. So maybe a little bit earlier than on Monday.
My friend Larry had left Rogers & Cowan. The chain of events resulted with my friend Jennifer also no longer working there. She had been working for another Michael (not my brother) and felt sorry to see him stuck without support.
My mother was chronically ill and I was trying to help her find a solution as she couldn't live independently anymore. I discussed a retirement home with her yet she said that she would rather die than live in one of those places.
Q: . . . I received my tape recorder back from Dictaphone and they replaced it. They didn't even charge me any money. I just can't believe that people would be so nice. It really restores my faith in large companies. I don't even know if it was covered under my agreement. ("BECAUSE") It really was something that might not have been covered. I mean dropping something. But they sent me a brand new — they replaced the whole machine and it's an $800 machine. I just can't — I just can't believe that there's a company that's so nice. Of course, I thank 'Michael' too. ("BU[T]") It just shows you that there are some people who honor their commitments, whatever they may be.
Q: By the way, Marie said she met a Creole singer named Boozoo Chavis. Q: Now guess what happened. Fiona called me to tell me about the party and she said that my books at the Psychic Eye are now in a very prominent position on the new table; however, when they opened up one of the books out of the plastic the pages started falling out. Can you believe it. This is exactly one of the things that I've been worried about. So I said I have over 4,000 copies so they all can't be bad. ("BUT SHE")
On Thursday I made telephone calls to learn how I could have my book listed for sale with bookstores and distributors after finding information about them online.
My mother told me she was going to end her Meals on Wheels service and said it would still be a few months before she was better according to an internist she saw. This period in my life became that was perhaps the most difficult phase for me emotionally concerning my relationship with my personal 'guide in Oneness.' Book sales expectations for Testament didn't come to fruition and I realized that potentially all of the expenses bringing the book to publication would result with no substantial return income for me; nonetheless, I always knew the importance of making all the information about myself available online for everyone on a noncommercial basis. I mentioned, "I'm very emotional though. Not always loving. It's (sometimes) hard to love an omnipotent Force when you can't tell what the reaction is to every little thing and 'They' can tell what yours is. I just hear that song a lot on the radio. 'Because You Loved Me.'" The song expressed some of my hopes and feelings.
I made a painting for 'Michael' for Valentine's Day as I had done the previous year. "I'm going to make my version of 'The Tree of Life' as a valentine for 'Michael' . . . I've also been reading a book with a Valentine's Day theme — which I found at The Psychic Eye when I dropped off my books . . . It's a poetry book by H. Alan Nicolette entitled Love's Roses are Red."
Q: I have to get a costume to wear to the party tomorrow — an Egyptian costume, if possible. So I'm going to call around about that. And then I said, 'I have to call and speak to Tany at Rogers & Cowan who handles books.' I've been meaning to do that. I did and we're going to have lunch today. Can you believe it? This has got to be it (a stepping stone to publicizing the book). So I'm making her a little presentation kit now. She wants to do something already even though I think I said I couldn't afford her . . .
Q: So I'm in Tany Soussana's office. They were all called to a staff announcement. (reading book titles) She represents Enter The Zone by Barry Sears, Ph.D. with Bill Lawren; An Alternative Medicine Definitive Guide to Headaches by Robert Milne, M.D. and Blake Moore with Burton Goldberg; The Pleasure Prescription: To Love, To Work, To Play — Life in the Balance by Paul Pearsall, Ph.D., bestselling author of Superimmunity and A Healing Intimacy; David Horowitz — Radical Son: A Generational Odyssey — co-author of Destructive Generation; and a novel The Devil's Footprint by Victor O'Reilly, author of Games of the Hangman. I see she also has a Manet with a graph on the wall from the ("METROPOL" "POL") Metropolitan Museum of Art. And a poster of "Imagine" — John Lennon — quote: "You may say I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one."
Tany returned from the meeting as I was pointing out to her assistant skywriting of a heart shape that an airplane was making in the sky for Valentine's Day. After having distributed the book to interview participants, etc., few shared their response to the book with me. People seemed more interested in my entertainment industry career than the fact that I was sharing firsthand details of interaction with the God Force. The awareness of people's inability to conceive of what for me was simple reality wasn't entirely unexpected — this potentiality was the reason I'd published the book in a documentary style. One possible reason was the publication and success of Conversations with God (1995). The nonsense remained a bestseller for years showing just how lost and unthinking were many readers with some inclination for metaphysical contemplation. All the hype about Conversations with God may have influenced media journalists as well as readers in a negative way so that when Testament was published and my news releases distributed, it went ignored. Then came another bestseller debacle with The Messengers by Nick Bunick. A Publishers Weekly article of March 17, 1997 had the headline "Will 'The Messengers' Make It Nationwide? " and the first paragraph stated: "That's what Pocket Books is hoping, with its $1-million commitment for world rights to The Messengers, a self-published $16 trade paperback that has sold more than 20,000 copies in the Seattle and Portland areas, as well as to its new follow-up, The Great Tomorrow. The Messengers is written by Portland hypnotherapist Julia Ingram and Seattle ghostwriter G.W. Hardin, but it's about the spiritual experiences of wealthy Lake Oswego, Ore.-based businessman Nick Bunick, who spent some $160,000 to promote the book in Portland and Seattle (and to run ads in PW)."
I'd been wanting to interview Tany after my brother and other staff members at Rogers & Cowan had told me she had experienced some form of angelic interaction.