JOURNAL — TAPE #249, SIDE #2
Q: Mark Russell BellA: Art Bell (portion of radio broadcast)R: unnamed KFWB radio commentatorJ: Jim Newman (portion of radio broadcast)S: unnamed KYSR radio commentator
(TRANSCRIBER’S NOTE: I TRANSCRIBED THIS TAPE SIDE MAY 1 & 2, 1998. NOW WORKING IN ANY WAY TO SUSTAIN THE CORRUPT CORPORATE ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY IS UNTHINKABLE. WHEN THIS TAPE SIDE WAS RECORDED, I WAS STILL TRYING TO PLACE INTO PERSPECTIVE THE LESSONS I’D LEARNED ABOUT ACCEPTING RESPONSIBILITY FOR EVERY ACTION AND ALWAYS CONSIDERING CONSEQUENCES.)
Q: So it’s about six o’clock Monday and I just heard from my friend Cheryl Boone Isaacs at New Line. She was a little nervous and, of course, as we were talking one of their electronic messages — voicemail — came on. And so she goes, “What was that?” And I said, “Uh-oh” — (“SHE”) repeated “uh-oh” and sort of laughed. It is sort of amusing. So I told her I was available for freelance. (“SIN”) I tried to send her a congratulations note but it came back because I didn’t have her new address. (“AND”) She said that they have the same amount of movies but not as big of staff. And I said, “Well, at least there are less suits for you to deal with.” And she agreed to that. (“SO”) It was a nice little friendly call.
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Q: I do remember I did say that when I had gone in there to do my freelance job (in the past) that the lady in charge had seemed overwhelmed but I couldn’t remember her name. It’s funny now when I think about it.
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Q: So I just called up IBM and I spoke to one of Jeanne’s friends. Her name was Gemma Mary Brady. I wonder where she lives. Of course, she “must be Catholic” and she said she was. So I said, “Well you’re probably some relation to the Brady Bunch,” which wasn’t a very good joke.
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Q: So, anyway, I called GTE and Theodore helped me reconnect my Internet server and then I realized I forgot about my Email. So I’ve lost all my Email — not that I needed any of it. Even though I think I lost that issue of CNI News, which was no big deal. But, anyway, I called Mark at GTE and there was a long wait this time. But he — (“I HAD”) a wrong, extraneous GTE command somewhere. I wonder how many times I’ve called IBM and GTE Internet Solutions. I think I’ve spoken both to Mark and Theodore before.
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Q: I’m not in the mood to make smalltalk anymore.
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Q: This is strange. I checked for new Email and it says that they weren’t able to deliver the message to email@example.com. “Connection refused by . . .” Oh well.
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Q: So I’m almost finished with New Testament — the first portion for the Internet and I wanted to share with you some of my thoughts. This will only take a minute. First of all, I’ve come to the conclusion that there is nothing that qualifies as insanity. Everything is a choice — a decision of behavior that each of us makes. Of course, we allow ourselves to get into these outlandish conditions for whatever our reasons. I’m not saying that it’s possible to act — well, yes, maybe I am. Recently, there’ve been many events in the news reported about young girls—teenagers, college students—killing their babies soon after they were born. Sometimes at the prom, sometimes wherever and one of them I heard recently, the media reported, said she did it because she heard voices. So everyone in society knows that’s one of the things you can say to get off and not take responsibility. ‘Well, I heard voices. Evil voices told me to do it.’ Of course, it doesn’t explain why she did it. Unless it’s for her own self-interests. Anyway, I think my actions prove 'insanity' being a choice we make because of our emotions.
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Q: So I don’t believe in 'insanity.'
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Q: So it’s still Tuesday, July 15th and I’m listening to Art Bell. Listen —
A: You may recall a difficulty at Hanford in Washington state. And do you remember at the time of the release — excuse me: of the “incident” — the explosion? They said there was absolutely no release of any sort of radiation. Well, Seattle media reported indeed there was an explosion and a release of plutonium albeit a small one at Hanford in Washington state. I told you. And this is yet another example of the fact that they do not tell you everything. They simply don’t tell you. When it occurs — when nuclear accidents of one sort or another occur, they inevitably deny everything. It seems to be the way they operate. And this obviously was not a big release but there was a release of plutonium and at the time they said no. And I said, “You mark my words you’re going to find later on that there was.” And, sure enough, here we are. There was.
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Q: The long-awaited first portion of NT has been converted to HTML. I’m writing a note to my webmaster telling him how to organize it on the website.
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Q: They’re filming a music video outside of my apartment. Four young kids wearing dark suits. Pathetic. It sounds all the same to me after a while. They’re so enthusiastic. It’s just a rock video. Why are they wearing suits? Anyway, I don’t know — who knows what group it is? Very young. Anyway, looking over the newspapers this week — today is the 16th, by the way. (“JU”) July 16th. So that’s the day that the first portion of New Testament goes to the webmasters. Yesterday, there was a money profile in the Business section of the Los Angeles Times—of all things— about another musician. It says, “Money Profile”/Kathy M. Kristof — “He Keeps Music in His Heart, Most of His Millions in Stock.” I won’t talk about it much. Just I’ll read you the first part to give you an idea.
Country-and-western crooner Kenny Rogers, who releases his umpteenth album today may not gamble with his millions but he certainly has taken a few risks with offbeat investments. After all, he’s got ‘more money than I could possibly ever spend.’
“I don’t take it lightly, but money doesn’t mean that much to me,” says Rogers, who at 58 is an established musician, multimillionaire, land baron and businessman. “It allows me to play and have a good time. But if I didn’t have money I would play at something else and still have a good time.” Later on, it does — (“SAY THAT”) “He has made and lost goodly sums in real estate and Arabian horses, and he supports a host of charities with donations of both time and money.” And then it goes on — but it’s not really a significant amount is it? Their idea of charity — the rich! In the Sports section on the same day there was an article about “A Scout’s Honor — Mike Brito May Work for the Dodgers but He Lives for His Angel” by Bill Plaschke. “‘The kid is an angel. You cannot imagine how much we love him. You just cannot imagine.’ Dodger Mike Brito on his son, Miguel.” In the articles it says:
Brito is busy celebrating his beautiful little boy, 20-year-old Miguel, brain-damaged at birth, sentenced to life in a silent, helpless purgatory.
“Look at his eyes, you can tell that he knows I’m here,” he says. “Sure you can tell.”
Every day he is home, Brito drives to the Frank D. Lanterman Center for the developmentally disabled in Pomona. Once there, in hallways and rooms where many are dumped by families and forgotten, he spends afternoons with Miguel, whispering to him and stroking him and feeding him Snapple out of an eyedropper.
“Can’t you tell that my son loves life, loves living?” he says, pointing to a vacant stare. “Can’t you tell?”
Miguel was actually walking when he was brought to the center at age 7, but his condition has worsened with age.
He was not expected to live much past his 15th birthday. There were times when Brito and his wife wondered if he wouldn’t be better off dead.
On Sunday, 20-year-old Dennis Reyes won a game. On Monday, Brito’s other 20-year-old did even better. He batted his eyes. He recognized his dad. On the days he’s out of town, his wife is the one who visits their son.
Q: So it’s interesting to find in the Sports section an article like this. “Mike Brito is baseball’s most recognizable scout, but few are aware of the devotion he has to his (“DD”) severely disabled son, Miguel.” I wonder what led to this being in the newspaper? I wonder what the truth is. Only we can really know how much we give to our families and to the other people in need. Every human being is a member of our family and that’s something I don’t think people will ever fully understand unless they’ve had an experience similar to mine. And once you’ve had this experience socialism doesn’t sound so evil. It sounds like a necessity. One world government — why not? If you’re doing what you want in life, who cares about having money to lose on speculations.
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Q: A day earlier, there’s an article in Metro that says, “A Look Ahead — Long Beach is among a growing number of cities that are tightening regulations on social service agencies. Officials say there are too many homeless and mentally ill people downtown, making it time to impose . . . Zoning Limits on the Down and Out” by Douglas P. Shuit. The article reveals that a growing number of Long Beach social service agencies are struggling with new curbs from City Hall:
The tough zoning ban has put Long Beach on the vanguard of cities in California and elsewhere that are digging in to their municipal code books to rein in growing numbers of homeless people, the mentally ill, paroled prisoners and recovering alcoholics and drug addicts who are flocking to downtown areas for services.
But in doing so, the city’s actions have raised serious legal questions and sent shock waves through the nonprofit service sector of a city that in earlier eras helped pioneer the development of alcohol and drug treatment programs.
Nationally, Maria Foscarinis, executive director of the Washington-based National Law Center on Homelessness and Poverty, said that she could find only one other city, Hartford, Conn., with a moratorium as sweeping as Long Beach’s, though she believes there are others.
She said Long Beach is part of a national trend in which more and more cities are looking to zoning laws to deal with the knotty problem of large numbers of the homeless and poor seeking services. Foscarinis said the actions are intensifying the problems caused made by cuts made by federal and state lawmakers in food stamps, financial assistance and benefits to the disabled.
“There have been massive cuts in aid programs for poor people, often with the understanding that private programs will fill the gaps,” she said. “With cities taking what I consider hostile and punitive actions against poor people, who will be there to fill the gaps?”
As in many other cities, low real estate prices, good public transportation and an abundance of social service agencies have made downtown Long Beach a magnet for both the needy and the agencies that help them. Residential programs for the homeless, battered women, alcoholics and drug addicts and the mentally ill are all within walking distance with each other. There are free meal and clothing giveaways, and opportunities for day work.
But the raggedy and sometimes frightening appearances of those attracted to such programs do not fit well with the image residents and municipal leaders want for their city.
Q: Such a wonderful, Godly image as that — they don’t like the fact that they’re helping people? I guess it’s not flattering. To what? To greed and hatred? Are those the goals of people in our society today? Is that what ‘status’ is all about? Look how insidious this whole process is. Read in between the lines of this paragraph:
Not too far away, long lines form outside Christian Outreach Appeal, which offers free meals to the poor twice a day. Local merchants say having the homeless and others walk to the agency hurts business. It’s proximity to several elementary schools also disturbs residents.
Q: Listen to the words. Isn’t this the kind of language (“THAT”) people always use? The politicians?
“There is definitely an over-saturation of social service programs in [the downtown area],” said City Councilwoman Jenny Oropeza, who represents the area and co-sponsored the moratorium. “The moratorium is necessary because the current zoning is not consistent with the plan the city has developed toward the area.”
The legal theory behind the action is that because the city can regulate the concentration of gun shops, recycling centers and tattoo and massage parlors, then it should also be able to regulate halfway houses and food giveaway programs.
The moratorium, plus the insult of being lumped in with massage parlors and other so-called undesirables, has infuriated administrators of non-profit agencies.
Dennis Rockway, senior counsel with the Legal Aid Foundation of Long Beach, said “the city can’t ban homeless shelters while allowing high-end hotels to operate a few blocks away.
“If the city is to allow one sort of temporary accommodation, namely hotels, it also has to allow other types of temporary accommodations, namely homeless shelters,” he said.
Down the street at Christian Outreach Appeal, Leon Wood, the program’s director, strongly opposes the moratorium. He said local business people and residents have legitimate concerns but that the real problems are poverty, homelessness and drug abuse, not the agencies dealing with the problems.
“We are spending more time fighting each other than fighting the problem,” he said.
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Q: I’m looking through the papers and I just can’t believe what I see everywhere. A scalded little girl is receiving $460,000. It says, “County agrees to settle case of alleged mistreatment by foster mother, a social worker. Prosecutors declined to charge her.” The article is by James Rainey.
The Los Angeles County Board of Supervisors agreed Tuesday to pay a $460,000 settlement to an 11-year-old foster child who allegedly was scalded with boiling water and tied up while in the care of an adoptive mother approved by county social workers.” I wonder how many millions of people would qualify for an equal sum of money at one point in their childhood? I’m sure I would.
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Q: Oh my gosh. Today in the Calendar section, there’s an article that says, “Will The Past Haunt ‘Tibet’?” by Judy Brennan special to The Times. It says, “Movies: Brad Pitt thought he was playing a hero in ‘Seven Years in Tibet.’ Then another war-era portrait came to light.” Brennan writes that the producers and the Simon Wiesenthal Center “were blindsided by a German magazine’s publication of newly released documents from the German government detailing Harrer’s deep involvement with the Nazi Party.” I have a funny feeling that even if it wasn’t so bad, it still wouldn’t have been a very good documentary. On page 10 of the headlines section, it says, “House GOP Votes to Strip All Funding From The NEA.” I mean we’re losing everything that gives a quality to life itself. We have schools without any extracurricular activities. We’re losing our very culture. All we have is commerce aimed at greed and money. (“IT’S LIKE”) There’s no other awareness or appreciation for anything beyond the almighty dollar.
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Q: I think what frightens me most — even taking into consideration that people have different degrees of consciousness and love, what will happen when these institutions and greed are so enduring and bolstered every day. I heard on the news that the Dow Jones hit an all-time high and you heard the applause and the cheering. Meanwhile, no one cares about what’s happening to the environment and the growing homeless and disenfranchised. The awareness factor. Why are some people so aware of these things? (“IS IT”) That these other people haven’t had their lessons yet? (“TO” or “TWO” “WH”) What’s going on? I mean these are old men who are representing our country. They must have had their lessons.
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Q: Maybe these aren’t really people. Maybe these are just creatures that don’t have for whatever reasons any understanding or comprehension or awareness or appreciation or taste or anything.
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Q: And Clinton doesn’t like the way he’s depicted in the movie “Contact”? There’s no alien being that can be as horrible as a politician. I guess the people who do such ill to others are projecting — they’re manifesting how they perceive the world. They’re judging others on how they themselves would behave in those circumstances. ‘If I were an alien (“SIN”) or more advanced technology, what would I do to the Earth?’ Well, I would be hostile toward aliens with that mindset (like Clinton’s) too but, of course, I don’t have that mindset at all. I cringe when I think of what’s going to happen to try to wake people up to the ecological and financial catastrophe that is being perpetuated. Something has got to happen. This just can’t go on. It can’t go on. I just hope it doesn’t have anything to do with plutonium — nothing that would hurt our environment any worse. (“BECAUSE”) That’s just too terrible. Something like a bloodbath at NASA I could deal with — maybe some UFO group or something might realize that NASA declared nuclear war on humanity and are going to take them out before they have a chance to win the war. I wouldn’t shed many tears over those murderers.
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Q: Oh dear. I guess the 'antichrist' in me is coming out. But, as you can see, it’s the social circumstances that are bringing him out of me. Poor Gianni Versace. At least he did die at pretty much an old age. He did live to be fifty. That’s more than a lot of disenfranchised people around the world can say. And he had a wonderful life. And you know what? For all of us who do have a wonderful life, this life will be over in a moment. I don’t hate people. I just feel alienated from them.
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Q: I’m the alien. (“THAT”) That would be a good shock ending, wouldn’t it? That I’m the alien?!
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Q: Unfortunately, no such luck. What’s especially bizarre is that so many “spiritual” people received my book — because I mailed the books to them myself and yet, since there are things in the book that reveal their sin to themselves, maybe that’s why they’re not helping God’s Word reach others — (“IT”) goes against their own self-interest. And if these are the most spiritual people in our society — well maybe God is testing mankind. So far I wonder what man’s grade is. (“AND OF COURSE”) God knows what He can expect. So it’s an interesting can of worms.
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Q: I think I’ll turn on the news so you can hear the newscaster exalt in the Wall Street debacle. That’s what I consider it to be. Something else that suggests how some people are on a very low awareness level is advertising. I mean I very rarely will buy something I see advertised. In fact, if I see something advertised I usually won’t buy it. Do anybody buy the things they see advertised? Is that another illusion? I mean it’s the product that has the best quality is what you buy. You can tell by looking at the label. You can tell by looking at it if it’s what you want. Who needs advertising?
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Q: So now it’s a few minutes later and the Jesus in me is coming out and I just want to remind you all that you can’t break God’s commandments by killing others no matter how much you would like to. And, besides, if everyone follows the commandments and is charitable (“TO”) toward his fellow man, then there is no need to do these terrible things. It all comes down to personal integrity and responsibility and becoming a person that we, ourselves, can love for all eternity. We have to earn God’s love. He gives us everything and we must pay back through our deeds and words and actions.
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Q: That is how we earn the right to be called God’s son, God’s friend, God’s whatever.
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R: . . . Time again to take a look at your money. Here’s business editor Jim Newman.
J: Earnings news fairly good and the latest word from the Labor Department is that inflation is no problem so the stock market really took off today with the Dow index closing above 8,000 for the first time ever at 8,038, gaining 63 points for the day. Some high tech issues like Microsoft and Intel did much better today and the NASDAQ composite index scored another record high, gaining 38 points to close at 1,580. So it was a runaway, bestselling day as far as this market was concerned. Boeing gained a dollar and a half at 59. Some interest rate-sensitive stocks were also higher like J.P. Morgan up 2 at 110. Crude oil futures fairly week across the board — the new month contract down 2 at $19.65 a barrel. Gold at $318.70, down 30. Silver off 11 at $4.18. Again, for the first time ever, on some fairly positive earnings reports, the Dow over 8,000, gaining 63 points for the day. Some are forecasting the Dow at 10,000 at mid-April of next year. I’m Jim Newman with the Wall Street Journal report at 25 and 55 past every hour on KFWB News 98.
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Q: If you listen to that report, you’ll see the unwritten laws and rules of rich people’s lives and how they check the gold and check the stocks, (“SIN”) make all this money without worrying at all about their fellow man. Sure, they watch “A Christmas Carol” every Christmas and maybe “It’s A Wonderful Life.” And since their sin is my own even though mine was removed because of my experience, I know that they think that everything they have God wants them to have. They fail to see the truth. They think (“LET”) other people can give money to the poor, other people can worry about the environment, other people — other people. And that’s why the world is in the situation that it’s in. (CUEs start) No one wants to do anything difficult. They just want to take and take and take. They don’t want to give back. They’re evil. Evil. If that isn’t the very nature of evil I don’t know what is. But they don’t seem to realize it. They need an antichrist to tell them. Or Jesus. Same thing in today’s society.
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Q: So I’m going to let Mighael set the tone for where we are now and see what’s on the radio.
S: . . . KYSR Los Angeles Star 98.7 . . . back to music.
(TRANSCRIBER’S NOTE: THE LYRICS OF THE SONG THAT IS HEARD ARE HARD TO DISTINGUISH. HERE ARE WHAT SOME OF THEM SOUND LIKE.)
I heard you cry about
About the way you . . .
. . . sorry for yourself . . .
Well don’t get lonely now . . .
So it looks like you’ve been thinking about ditching me . . .
Q: I don’t get the context. I understand the importance of two separate poltergeists both using the nickname ‘Pots’ but I don’t really understand the context of this song. I don’t know who it’s by. I don’t know what the title is. I don’t know what it’s all about. I can’t understand what they’re saying. It’s loud. It’s not pretty. I don’t know. Mighael, I want to erase this tape side. I said mean, terrible things. I’m a brat. Nostradamus has Ra in his name too. Boo, I don’t know what to say.
(TRANSCRIBER’S NOTE: MY THOUGHTLESS COMMENT ABOUT NASA IS HARDLY UNPRECEDENTED. THE FOLLOWING IS FROM PAGE 96 OF ANTICHRIST AND THE MILLENNIUM BY E.R. CHAMBERLIN.)
There was never lacking biblical precedent for slaughter, and a ranting Fifth Monarchist, John Gardiner, found a sufficiently bloody pretext in Deuteronomy. But it was not he, or Feake, or Rogers, or any of those who had so often sworn to inaugurate the millennium of love with a bloodbath, who now turned words into action.