JOURNAL TRANSCRIPT — TAPE #510, SIDE #2


L: Linda Moulton Howe (portion of radio broadcast)
A: Art Bell (portion of radio broadcast)

Q: — behind the counter waiting to serve them? Humble little old me. Another word with bel/ble in it — humble me waiting to serve them and judge them should they shoplift something. Won’t that just be perfect? I’ve really got to convince all my friends to come and see the show — (“I WONDER”) if they’ll get it.

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Q: So it’s a few hours later and I’m here in bed meditating. If you have any other interpretation for me working at Forest Lawn as a clerk, maybe you’re close to the mind of God. Closer than I am. Maybe Mighael’s trying — what is Mighael trying to say? What is He trying to show and reveal? Should I not look for work and wait for Him to show me what He wants? Should I have faith in the radio opportunity fulfilling the prospect? Book orders coming in? I’m so preoccupied with paying my bills. Is that some form of condemnation of me and my small-mindedness? I don’t know what Mighael wants or expects or is trying to show me. Perhaps my superficiality. What else could I be doing to spread my message in the world? Make a death threat on the President? How better to deliver His message? How fitting it is for me to work selling trinkets at Forest Lawn. The beautiful story of Jesus giving way to the cold reality of the Messiah. Working as a clerk in a cemetery? Mighael, there could be many interpretations of Your vision and ways.

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Q: Am I grandstanding at this moment? Who knows what goes on in the mind of God? Years and years of humans’ indifference could have any result. Maybe it’s all my failure to see a more noble truth, a more noble path presented for me that I failed to somehow take. Well maybe God is jealous of His messiahs. Well I’ve always thought I was the main clown. Encounter me and you’re jut encountering the main clown.

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Q: I cherish all these interpretations. I would take the job in a flash. After witnessing the epic of the crucifixion and the resurrection, here look at your messiah working for little more than minimum wage in a cemetery shop filled with replicas of art pieces and other phony objects. What’s real is your love for me. Oh Mighael, I would participate in such a mystery play because I know my love for you. (“ISN’T” “FAKE”) Of course, that’s just a more positive interpretation. I surrendered my will and life to You. Do with it what You will. That’s not to say I’d ever push any red buttons. But I can sell postcards in a shop, Mighael.

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Q: And I can always buy a copy of the PRS lecture to listen to after work. I can still do my job that way.

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Q: Maybe it’s because I accused you of being a God of hate hiding behind an illusion of love that maybe I see that manifest in my own life. Oh Mighael. Don’t listen to me. I’m out of my mind too.

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Q: So Jesus denied drinking the wine offered to him on the cross — in the prison cell before execution. When asked for my last supper, what would I choose? Would I say nothing? Or would I say “a box of candy” or something? How would I define myself? How mutual is this act of defining? How many choices do we truly have?

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Q: There is love in my heart.

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Q: I wonder if God appreciates the fact that I would be happy to sell postcards in Heaven.

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Q: I’m sitting here thinking — well, actually, lying here thinking. It’s been a long time since I’ve been able to afford any poetry books.

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Q: Maybe God hates white people.

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Q: So my tapes are an exercise in honesty. So what is my philosophy now after all these experiences? What would make me happy in eternity? Should I be content alone physically? Or do I still want another human to live and co-habitate with? And share life with? Of course, this would be a manifestation of God, I presume. One aspect of God. One aspect finding another aspect. I think this would be enough to make me happy. To have a physical manifestation of God to cherish and experience life with. Is that a sin — that observation? Or should I not want any other person and just continue — well, of course, that’s how I plan. I’m not meant to have any other . (“BUT”) In Heaven I think I would want S/someone else — of course, hopefully chosen by God for me. Mighael. And I would be happy. Everything else seems not important but having some revealing countenance of God to see reflected in their eyes, their expression responses to my truth. Because this is something denied to me now. I never know what Mighael feels or thinks. I just see the outer manifestations and guidance of my life. Of course, it is influenced by the choices I make.

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Q: What am I revealing? What truths?

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Q: My horoscope promised love this evening.

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Q: Well, one thing’s for certain. This isn’t my fantasy. This isn’t my dream.

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Q: So truly I feel as if I have had enough of this life. But not so that I would stop living, wanting to share in the joys of new — I don’t know what I’m saying anymore.

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Q: So all of the arts in the world reveal God. All His creations. The animals. The plants. Every beautiful thing. And my book reveals me — my experiences somehow reveal me.

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Q: I’m telling God about our goal that we just want to be loved by God and share in the joy of His creation.

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Q: I think it would be good to have the theme song from the movie “The Rose” played here but I don’t have a copy of it.

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Q: (this portion is hard to hear)

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Q: Oh no, Boo. I think I understand.

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Q: After hearing all these tapes, people will make the mistake of loving me as the illusion of Your metaphor. They won’t love You. It won’t make a difference we each are You. The story is Yours.

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Q: So I guess at this point it’s important to say that this identity won’t survive after this life is over. It’s just the spirit that goes on. So don’t love me, love God. This is all His devising. Well, that’s not really a good word. This is all His expression of beauty in the face of disappointment.

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Q: We’re just here on Earth to show love.

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Q: Not for our own ego. (“BUT”) To live in harmony with God and to show love for God through our actions.

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Q: I just remembered that I saw another “MEAN PEOPLE SUCK” bumper sticker today.

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Q: One interpretation of this is, perhaps, this is the best a messiah can hope for in a selfish world of self-opportunity and self-interest. That’s why this job is the one I have because no one wants to hear my message. I’m lucky to have a job — even though I don’t have it yet. And I know it — goddamnit I know I’d be lucky to have a job — be able to pay my bills, live another month. Mean people suck. Are you one of them? Not you, Mighael. The person listening to the show.

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Q: So I think I’m understanding that ‘heart being eaten’ metaphor because now it’s dawning on me that I’m in a trap like, let’s say, an animal whose skin is being sought after by a hunter. (“BUT”) I have no metal trap so I’m gnawing away at my own heart, unable to deliver my message and proof of God’s love. Who knows? A huge canvas, perhaps, someday will be shown in some other cemetery — depicting all the people who wouldn’t help me deliver my message.

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Q: So what was interesting last night on a pretty routine “Dreamland” was the way Linda Moulton Howe and Art Bell were relating to one another. It seemed pretty much the same as usual at first but then there was this during her presentation.

L: In other news, Project Awareness will be holding their 1998 Gulf Breeze UFO Conference at the Beachside Resort Hotel on Pennsacola Beach, Florida in two weeks. I’ve been asked to speak about subjects in my new book Glimpses of Other Realities Volume II: High Strangeness, which is expected now to be in book stores nationwide later this month. Part of my presentation will include beautiful aerials of the 1997 crop circle formation. For tickets to the Project Awareness Conference in Pennsacola Beach . . . (gives phone number twice). I’ll be speaking there Saturday and Sunday, March 21st and 22nd, and I would love to meet any of you “Dreamland” and “Coast” listeners who can make the conference. Come up and introduce yourself to me. And that Sunday, March 22nd, I will be at the Books A Million book store in Mobile, Alabama at 3 p.m. to talk about and sign my new book (“AT”) at Books A Million at 3960 Airport Boulevard in Alabama at three o’clock, March 22nd.

Q: So then she gave a report — a medical update on the flash-eating bacteria. So this is how the half-hour segment closed out.

A: Linda, hold on. We’re at the bottom of the hour. We’ll finish up in a moment. This is “Dreamland.”

Q: So I began to figure out what was going on after the commercial break.

A: And here I am. Linda Moulton Howe is here and I wanted to sort of finish up her report elegantly rather than instantaneously. Linda, —

L: Thanks, Art.

A: — you’re back on again.

L: Thank you, Art.

Q: Somebody must have obviously had some kind of words. Usually he just hurries her off at the end of the opening half hour and she blurts out her contact information. I don’t think she’s been selling very many books. So at the end of the report this is what Art had to say.

A: Alright, Linda. Good enough. I really appreciate the report. Now, if you would please, (give out) your contact info.

L: Thank you. My fax number is (gives phone number twice). My mailing address is P.O. Box 300 in Jameson, PA 18929. That’s P.O. Box 300, Jameson, PA 18929. And, Art, Paper Chase Press is taking some advance orders on my new book. I’d like to give out that number, if I could.

A: Alright. Sure.

L: That’s (800) 864-7991. Advance orders on Glimpses of Other Realities book on high strangeness is (800) 864-7991. And in a couple of weeks I hope you and I will go over some of this amazing material in the book on “Coast.” (“WE WILL”)

A: We will do that. “Coast” is a place for high strangeness. Linda, thank you and we’ll look forward to hearing from you next week.

L: Alright. Thanks.

A: Take care. Alright. That’s Linda Moulton Howe, everybody.

Q: It reminds me of myself on those radio shows trying to sell my books. I don’t think people want to pay money for Linda’s books because they can hear her for free every week on “Dreamland” and sometimes on “Coast.” (Art should be paying her a salary for her regular contributions but I don’t know if this is the case.) I think people are bored of enigmatic reports where people don’t really know any hard conclusions or concrete answers for the phenomena. However, she could have my information to pass on and talk about. I’m sure people would find that a lot more interesting than what she’s talking about. High strangeness. Cattle mutilations. I think she knows a lot more about cattle mutilations — well, I know she does. I saw that information that the journalist had provided her . What a kettle of fish this is.

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Q: I’m just amazed. I received some Email from Charles T. Oliphant III. Remember him? The one who found all those ties between Transmissible Spongiform Encephalopathies and cattle mutilations and covert operations? The one who supplied all that information to Linda Moulton How who seems strangely mum about it all, still concentrating on the alien aspects of the business? He sent me some Email about “THE UFO PUBLIC NUISANCE HALL OF FAME PRECINCT REPORT. Update!” So there’s a ranking of various people involved in ufology and how many nominations they’ve received for The UFO Public Nuisance Hall of Fame. I mean I really think we all have more important things to do than this kind of kind of B.S. Does he really think that, after reading my book, (“THAT”) this is something I would have time for? I mean if I were to Email him back “Steve Bassett,” for example, that would just result in much more publicity for Steve. I just can’t believe this. (“HID”) It says in the Email, “I’m making good on my threat to start a listing of annoying people who’ve forced themself onto the UFO research world, and the public with high-profile, low credibility claims of Extra-terrestrial contact.” I should Email him back and tell him, ‘Sure. You tell me more about Phil and then I’ll give you my nomination’ — the mysterious ‘Phil’ who Ted ended his pages on cattle mutilation at his website at http://www.realityb.com with “Phil tells me that there are three different groups studying Transmissible Spongiform Encephalopathies. There is the public group, associated with Nobel Prize winner Stanley Prusiner. The second group is private and headed by a man whose name I will hold onto for the moment. The third is the government group, funded by a black budget. The groups don’t always share information, so each is trying to figure out what the other is doing. By the 1960’s, 112 different strains of Transmissible Spongiform Encephalopathies had been identified. I don’t have any information on how many have been identified today. I don’t know if the strains identified here in the U.S. are more, or less dangerous that those still threatening Great Britain.” So he’s talking about a cover-up while engaging in one himself in some ways. Right before that, he did point out that: “Because these cows (which can be) identified through lower temperature signatures will probably die soon anyway, it’s less of a moral issue for the team performing the samplings.” So that’s why they do what they do.

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Q: I remember his previous Email when he talked about Linda’s video “Strange Harvests, 1993” and “UFOs: The Best Evidence” (a video by George Knapp) featuring Oliphant’s investigative work; and also her book Glimpses of Other Realities. And he did say, “For two years I was the training coordinator for Northern California MUFON. I am an Air Force veteran which makes me suspect to the highly paranoid. Who’d ever thought being a vet would be a strike against you?” Who is this Phil who Oliphant describes as “a friend of mine who prefers to remain anonymous, but I often write about him in my many articles”?

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Q: I found an interesting new bulletin board at the www.artbell.com website posted by Art’s guest Ted Twietmeyer so I’m sending him Email (“I”) telling him, “I think the main thing being covered up by hiding evidence of extra-terrestrials is that this is proof of God’s existence. After all, what really scares some people is having to take responsibility for their own actions. Many are so accustomed to caring only about their own self-interests while merely giving lip service to the Christian ideals, they don’t want to face the truth of there being a Higher Power. The state of denial can be so strong that these individuals would even commit murder to preserve it. This website offers proof of God’s existence.” And then I put my web address.

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Q: So I just sent the Email. I never get tired of this subject. People think it’s alright to do all these terrible things because our media glamorizes violence. People have seen so many James Bond movies, so many Alfred Hitchcock movies. No matter what the level of reality after all—ourselves, aliens, UFOS—it’s all just aspects of God. That’s the MacGuffin. Mysteries are the MacGuffin. Our behavior is the reality.

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Q: On another message board, an Art Bell listener is asking anyone who has seen the video for the strange happenings that took place on the space shuttle mission, STS-80. So another one said that it’s at the end of Richard Hoagland’s “Monuments of Mars” presentation to the United Nations.

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Q: So at this message board, Ted writes: “Were you working at the LC-39 Pad, or in the LCC the day of the launch? We want fact-based data from you. . . .” (This was posted March 3, 1998 and the following minutes later.) “A certain employee of a large aerospace firm entered the blockhouse beside the mobile launcher on the day of the Challenger’s last flight. He changed the setup of a switching system, and by doing so ALL Pad Measurement System data was lost. I received a phone call shortly after the disaster about this fact. The switching system was my design, and it was tested by NASA after the disaster and no faults were found. After learning more about NASA over the years, and from years of dealing with them on a business/technical level, I began to realize the importance of this hidden information, never released to the public. I was asked to be a guest on Art Bell’s show, and related only facts as I know them. Were you an employee then, directly associated with that launch? Suppose one of those astronauts was your family member? Why wait any longer! The Challenger 7 didn’t deserve to die in order to fulfill a hidden directive. NASA violated at least 4 of their own no-launch safety rules. WHY? Come forward and join us in the quest for truth.”

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Q: So let’s see what’s in this Entertainment Weekly number #422, March 13 — oh, Friday the 13th edition. The editor, Michael J. Klingensmith, is leaving Entertainment Weekly for Sports Illustrated. He must not really care much about sports or the entertainment industry. Just about the money. So the big news in “News + Notes” seems to be Jim Carrey landing the role of Andy Kaufman in Milos Forman’s upcoming “Man on the Moon.” It says “Dressed in a campy, peach-colored tuxedo, Carrey launched into a stand-up routine that included some of Kaufman’s best-known characters, such as Foreign Man—the prototype of his role as Latka Gravas on ‘Taxi’ (‘Thank you veddy much’)—the bad-guy wrestler, and the Las Vegas lounge lizard Tony Clifton.” Excuse me — but that “bad-guy wrestler” wasn’t a character. That was Andy. I remember those disgusting displays on “Saturday Night Live.” He would wrestle often beautiful, much weaker women to get some kind of joy out of humiliating them. And, if I remember correctly, eventually someone who wasn’t weaker than him kicked his ass — I think broke his arm or something. And I guess the drugs he was given after that eventually gave him cancer. I guess it’s all karma, after all. I wonder if Milos Forman’s movie will be about all that. He was one of the least funny people I’ve ever seen anywhere. Of course, I’m not a big sitcom fan and I never even saw a single entire episode of “Taxi.”

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Q: This magazine is funny. They always have a “Double Takes” column and in this episode it reveals that “Titanic” is actually a remake by God of the movie “Say Anything” — something for people with very limited consciousness.

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Q: My God, this Michael Portnoy upset the Grammys with his “soy bomb” routine and they give him so much publicity — (“THEY’RE JUST”) motivating these people to make fools of themselves on other golden idol shows.

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Q: In an article entitled “Yoga Party”/”Trends” by Michael Rovner, it says, “On the just-released ‘Ray of Light,’ Madonna hums the Hindu hymn ‘I worship the gurus’ lotus feet’ and puts herself squarely at the forefront of the new yoga chic.” It just shows you that people in this town still think spirituality is an affectation and not an art of giving back to those less fortunate and to the planet. They don’t know about the new commandments, obviously.

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Q: There’s an article about Danny Elfman, who has two golden idol nominations this year. I remember interviewing him while I was at Paramount for the “Scrooged” soundtrack — I’m not quite sure what movie it was. He called me back to make sure I wasn’t a fan making up my interview request. I wonder if composers will be upset when they read my book and discover that they’re really channeling the music. They don’t do it all by themselves.

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Q: Oh here’s an article on “Monster Mash” about the new “Godzilla” film. Anyone with the name of Dean Devlin definitely scares me. I thought it was interesting listening to Art’s show the other night when it was suggested that there was some funny business behind Dean’s writing and producing career and covert discoveries and agendas.

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Q: Here’s an ad for Billy Crystal’s new movie “My Giant.” I met him when I was working at Slade, Grant, Hartman & Hartman. Our client was his personal trainer. It’s good to see there’s at least one star in Hollywood who isn’t taking steroids. I heard on the radio last night someone saw Arnold Schwarzenegger at a personal appearance and said, “He looked much littler than I thought he would be.” Well, he’s had heart problems and he’s probably no longer taking steroids. I still think that’s why his wife took those poor paparazzi to trial. It’s much easier to take it out on other people than it is to face your own problems. Especially those dealing with mortality. What makes me mad is the judge, who lets them get away with that kind of thing because they’re celebrities.

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Q: There’s also an article about “An Alan Smithee Film: Burn Hollywood Burn,” the most honest film about Ho (or spirit message “HO”) —

(TRANSCRIBER’S NOTE: I WAS GOING TO SAY HOLLYWOOD, OF COURSE, YET THERE WAS ONLY ENOUGH REMAINING TAPE FOR THE MESSAGE “HO,” WHICH EVERYONE FAMILIAR WITH RAP MUSIC—ALSO CHANNELED BY GOD—KNOWS TO MEAN ‘WHORE.’ AS I HAVE REVEALED ON PREVIOUS TAPES, THIS IS OBVIOUSLY WHAT GOD HAS IN MIND AS THE MAJOR SIGNIFICANCE INSIDE THE WORD HOLLYWOOD — ALONG WITH THE WORD ‘WOOD,’ A CRUCIFIXION PARALLEL, AND PERHAPS ‘HOLY’ AS MOVIES ARE MIRACLES, AFTER ALL. THIS EDITION OF ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY ALSO MENTIONS PETER GUBER AND THE POSSIBILITY OF HIS MANDALAY ENTERTAINMENT MOVING TO PARAMOUNT. PETER IS SOMEONE WHO HAS SOME IDEA OF WHAT’S GOING ON WITH THESE BIG BUDGETS YET CONTINUES TO EXPLOIT THE CORRUPT SYSTEM NONETHELESS. IN THE TELEVISION SECTION, PATRICK STEWART HAS A VERY RELEVANT QUOTE: “WHAT MAKES AHAB A TRAGIC FIGURE IS THAT HE’S NOT JUST A F—-ED-UP PSYCHOTIC. HE KNOWS HE COULD TURN THE SHIP AROUND — BUT HE ALWAYS CHOOSES MOBY DICK, AND HE SUFFERS.” AN AD FOR THE NEW “MOBY DICK” READS “THE EPIC TALE OF A CRAZED BEAST AND THE WHALE THAT HAUNTED HIM.” A REESE’S AD QUOTES CARRIE BELL, STUDENT, AS SAYING, “I LIKE TO GIVE EACH PIECE A CHANCE” IN JUXTAPOSITION WITH A PEANUT BUTTER CUP CARVED INTO A PEACE SIGN. THAT IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE OF THE APPARENT LEVEL OF PEOPLE’S CONSCIOUSNESS IN 1998.)